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        There always comes a time in life when you simply begin to wonder what if. Now these what if's are not dwells on the past; but simply wonder's of what if I would have done that this way or what if I would have said what I truly meant. It's a simple question; yet this simple question holds so many answers that you can never truly answer it. Not unless your God then pretty much you know all possible answers to that one simple question that comes into mind. A what if question is not something that normally you think about you can hear a song, see a picture, wake up and simply ask what if. A dream can lead to what if, a glance at the sky can lead to the memory that can cause a what if. Honestly the simplicity of this question is so unsimplistic that asking or wondering takes up hours of your time. It may sound repetitive as you read from beginning to now but sit back for a second.       Turn Pandora find that one...

When your a mom especially a stay at home mom you tend to forget about yourself. You forget that you too can look nice, that you too can get a haircut and mani done. But honestly who can you blame us as mothers our job is to ensure our children, husband have all they need and everything is taken care of. And please do not think I am bashing guys because I know some amazing dad's out there that have endured the same and they are amazing fathers. But admit it as women we push ourselves aside to better those around us. Perfect example we go shopping see a really cute skirt we try it on though it look's amazing we put it back and buy our kids three jeans for the amount of that one hot skirt. It's a logical sacrifice mothers make without thought or care honestly. I began working part time last year and I worked with two other women like me moms but they both looked good. I use to tell myself buying for me and not them is wrong; Bullshit the wrong was forgetting me. So I choose ...

You know how no matter the amount of faith and hope you have; there is always the ever present and wiggling it's nasty little head out seed of doubt. The seed of anger or the seed of what the fuck.  It's one of the days in your life where you wondering I have done good enough, will I do good enough. Funny thing is guess what; SHIT HAPPENS. I have told myself this saying countless times and I have also lived by the words "Everything happens for a reason." recently I lost meaning to the words I have chanted mentally since they were told to me. Today was of these dam what the fuck days; so I get on Facebook and what do I see. let's just say I was blatantly reminded my motto has one hell of a meaning. Too many of you it might be ridiculous but to those that know what I am saying; that understand what a personal motto is will understand. That my motto is my hope, it's my rope to remain tethered to my goals, it's the dream that plays itself once in a while to r...

I can officially say I suck at blogging. So it's been a while a dam long while but I am back. So winter is now here in Montana and as cold as it is we are enjoying it. To be able to walk outside and shiver yet have amazing pretty hair. ( superficial moment; Hey I am chick what can I say.) Wearing boots and coats, drinking endless amounts of hot chocolate and get endless snuggles. Ahhh the love of winter is that you can never hear to much "Mommy can I cuddle with you." or my fav "Mommy let's watch another Christmas movie" ( Yes I like the sappy hallmark movies." To know that possibility of having white winter for the first time in 13 years is so dam thrilling I fell like a kid seeing snow for the first time. I have so much more to write about and tons of pictures to share but a mom's gotta do what a mom's gotta do.  Till next time my lovelies, Stay warm . 

Hello my loves,  Tonight I sit in a quite home all are asleep and mama is listening to Pandora. Pretty Eyes by Jason Reeves. You know when you listen to that song and it either takes you back or gives you that feeling. Weather it be of love, anger or simply calming waves of serenity to wash over you; and it makes you think. Of what who knows as each of you is a wonder of your own but never the less music is the remedy to many if not all aliments. Some songs are your down fall, some are your smiles and laughter, other's make you dance like no is watching; while others simply make sit back making you smile. I love when I hear coffee shop songs that remind me of the fall in New York. The many walk's that would make me smile, the sound of the leaves at my feet or the amazing breathtaking sunset of Manhattenhedge. Song are keys; keys that many don't know exist a song can change your life or steady your rocky path. But a...

              Hello my lovely's I am back. Sorry I haven't kept up with the blog but life has been flippin hectic. But this post is not about that it is about our move to Montana and what we have discovered so far. So we have been here a month already and it been a month. First I will start with the drive up; which was a beautiful drive up until we hit South Dakota. We saw amazing sights the St. Louis arch, Superman's Water Tower and much more. But When we drove into South Dakota it was a sea of nothing. I FLIPPIN cried that's how much nothing you see. I can't remember how long it took but I will tell you this. ONLY ONE DAM STABUCKS WAS FOUND ONLY ONE. "How the fuck do people go without coffee especially Starbucks. " I have no clue. I have no way to fathom or process the thought of a state with more than one Starbucks. I mean there probably is more than one but we drov...